Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Is there really too much to do?

Lately, I've been pretty sure there is too much to do - which, of course, stresses me out. I used to think that I don't handle stress well because when I get stressed I want to do what I want to do. I get bossy, insensitive to my wife, and I want to relax how I want to relax - no matter what anyone else wants.

But I've come to a revelation. I actually deal with stress really well because I serve a God who is all powerful. What I mean is, I don't easily stress out when I'm serving God - even if things get crazy all around me because He is a good father who is in control. However, when I take control of some part of my life (serve myself), I find that I don't have what it takes to be in control, which stresses me out. Then, I end up taking control of my whole life, which leads to being bossy, insensitive, and selfish with my time. If I am trying to control my life I end up looking to my own solutions to deal with my negative feelings, instead of looking to God's sufficient provision.

The really crazy thing is that I have this revelation on a regular basis - it just seems to come quicker each time around.